Well, we knew that it was likely that at least one of the five couples in our Seattle Adoption Seminar (held by our actual adoption agency) would get placed with a baby. Of course, we selfishly hoped it would be us first. And we received word in the last week that indeed a couple from our session was chosen and now they are the proud parents of a beautiful baby boy.
I playfully described each of the couples in our Seattle Seminar blog posting from October 24, 2010. I described this couple as "the young couple (our age) who had trouble conceiving and were just content listening to the rest of us interact."
It is a strange mixture of excitement and sadness. It is obvious that this was not supposed to be our baby as fate chose this other couple as the parents. However, it also hits way closer to home than any other birth announcement. Jon and I receive monthly updates of which couples (or individuals ) were placed with a baby, but every other time we have heard that a baby was placed with a couple, they are a faceless name. We have no connection to them besides this very, very intense and emotional journey. However, when we heard the news this time....for this particular couple, it felt much more intense, much more real, much more hopeful, and much more discouraging all in one. It comes back to the mind game where you struggle to balance positive thinking with realistic thinking. On one hand you have "wow, it is great to see progress and know that it really can happen at any moment in your life." And on the other hand you have "how much longer can I continue this torture of will it or won't it happen"?
Anyways, we continue to walk along through life hoping that at the moment when we least expect it....BAM.....our moment will arrive!!
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